“I SPEAK TO EVERYONE IN THE SAME WAY, WHETHER HE IS THE GARBAGE MAN OR THE PRESIDENT OF THE UNIVERSITY” — ALBERT EINSTEIN

back to blogging...
one thing i learn when my auntie who happened to have insurance broker job...
she is really really blow me off..
i mean the way she treat everyone else whether you are rich or poor, whatever ur statur is..
jujur aja.. aku klo sama mbak dirumah ngomnya jutek deh.. kalo nyuruh2 itu pake nada tinggi
kmrn tante datang... bener bener rasanya kayak ditampar lohhh
mbak makasih yah.. mbak makan dulu mbak mbak dan diikutin oleh berbagai macam manner yg bikin gw nganga!!!
iya gw bachelor degree tapi attitude gw selevel ama anak tk..
jujur juga kalo bertemen gw pilih2.. yg cantik yg kayak gw lebi demen..
heheheh tapi kejadian2 kmrn dari tante dtg buat chen beng *sembahyang kubur" bener2 bikin gw terbelalaik..

dan quote dari albert einstein.. mo jadi org besar!!! harus berhati besar dan berjiwa besar!!
banyak hal yg tau pasti.. mesti dirubah.. apalagi kalo udaberkarat di dasar hati.. well it takes time!
tapi uda bagus kalo sadar kan...

day 8, 9, 10, and 11

sunday actually is my diet day-off!!! since i already put off 3 pounds this last week!!  jadiii aku tetep diet hari minggu!!! karena next week tgl 18 gitu kan sodara merit jadi sapa tau kan sapa tau kan uda bisa pake khaftan ijoku!!! hihihi.. jadi smoga aja next week uda 67 or 66 gitu!!!! asiikkkkkkk

I NEVER GIVE UP! NO!

leave me be

Everyone has dealt with losing people, right? The hardest thing about losing the people that you love is seeing them with other people. It sucks knowing that the person you love moved on just a little quicker than you do. Because when you're with them, it's almost as if you're superhuman, and having to wake up in the morning, realizing that they're not there with you anymore, is a punch in the heart every time, it feels like you've lost your super powers. Saying, "I'm happy for you, now that you've found someone else in your life that makes you happy," is the biggest lie anyone could ever say to their loved ones. You're not happy seeing them with anyone else, as selfish as it sounds, you wish it was you, you wish they've never found anybody else but you. When your sweetest dream came true turned into a nightmare, makes it seem like you forgot how to dream again. I know how that feels because I've been through all of it. All, tiny, bit of it. 

But what if the tables are turned *inspired samo adele "turning table"*, what if you're on the other side of the road? Knowing that someone still have feelings for the person you're starting something with, will you still do it anyways, will you go for it? Are you going to smile above someone else's pain? Are you going to choose your own happiness, knowing that you've taken theirs?????

In my life I learned, that when you've experienced so much pain in your life, you'll get used to it (YES NUMB). You forgot how it felt like to scar yourself, to tear your skin apart, or to bleed (And not that I've literally hurt myself). No matter how many times you say that you don't care, crying for it numerous amount of times actually let you know that you do give a damn. I may be numb after all those things that I've been through, but I'm not heartless. But, honestly, for once, I thought I could prove my heart that my brain was wrong or totally not operated!!! 

Why can't I be normal just once in my life? Is this not enough crap I have to go through? Can I not fall for someone, and having no drama involved behind it, be happily attached to them? Is that really... REALLY... Too much to ask? Screw everyone who ever fell in love, screw those who said it's okay to choose to be happy, screw every butterflies in my stomach, screw every dreams I ever believed in. You know why being alone doesn't suck? It's because that way, nobody can ever hurt you. You know what... I'm done. Just leave me be.

diet day 3,4,5,6,7

so far i already lost one kg!! and guess what!! again the appetite is beyond my control!!!!!
i ate 20 sticks chicken satay with lontong of course!!!!! i dont know how much rebound i will get cos of tonight dinner!!! 
DEAD MAN WALKING!!!!!!! today just promise to my pt that i will lose till 67 kg by next week! 
drive me nuts okay all of these pressures! oh yeah... i remembered i told u guys *kayak ada yg baca aja blognya... my stalker kan cuman satu!! ayo yg lagi baca jgn senyum2 rin ;p* that i will gym at the morning and body language exercise at noon... well until today am only exercise at the morning cause im so exhausted okay!!! so just give me more courage ya Tuhan.. supaya gak give up!!! I WONT!!! cause we are COMMITTED PEOPLE!!!! 


ANYWHOOOOOO.....
i may still not know what i want to be when i reach 30!!! i got a lot of thoughts recently especially when its bed time... i got scared until now im still financially dependent, and the worse part is im getting lazier to achieve my old time dreams but i do still have the big wish u know to live in a small house but pretty filled with books and travel souvenirs. i havent decided where i want to settle yet, but its a big possibility that it will be New York (yeah my big dream xp), Kuala Lumpur (i love this city never cant get enougth, oh KL im in love hahahhaa), or maybe switzerland!!!! or maybe my hometown (toeng toeng). the walls that arent covered in bookshelves will be covered with photos of my family and friends. when i leave the house, i will be going to a job i love and i'll return to a person i love. That's the dream i'm working on. 

diet day 2 and 3!!

kmaren makan pete kan jadi mencret2 entah kenapa so i lost 1 pound!! horeeeyyy!!!
tapi hari ini makan nasi satu piiring gede!!! rebound lagi deh buahahahaha...


65 65 65 i promise tonite i only let myself to dine ubi singkong!!!! ihihihi

Diet day 1

mulai skrg saya akan mereport tentang "progress diet" mulai hari ini!!!
iyo dari tercatat tanggal satu maret ini saya akan memulai kembali "strict diet"
fitness angkat beban pagi hari sore senam body languange
terus cuman mengkonsumsi ubi sebagai pengganti nasi! memang ubi tinggi karbnya tapi kalorinya tidak setinggi nasi putih or nasi merah! seratnya lebi tinggi gitu!

terus kalo lapar mencoba untuk mengkonsumsi "kemplang panggang" ini tidak bikin gemuk karena proses memasaknya di panggang bukan di goreng:))))

karen buah tidak terlalu suka oleh karena itu saya memilih utk dijus! biasanya campuran apel, tomat, wortel, pir korea, buah lai ijo n strobery! hihihihi

terus kalo masak garemnya dikit karena klo banyak fatnya susah turun n gula dikit biar turun berat badannya cepet :)))

dari september - november strict diet =  78 kg menjadi 69 kg (MAKAN 5 kali cuman makan nasi merah)

dari november-february gak diet mulai makan nasi putih n mulai makan mie, uda brani coba2 makan chitato n coklat!! jadi lah dari 69 rebound ke 71!!! skrg sih 69.8 kg!!!

jadi march- september  doakan saya untuk temen wedding: 55 kg!!!!!
jadi march ini saya targetkan utk bisa reach 65kg!!!! AMIN!


AYOK SARI SEMANGATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

found biggest motivation

aku uda ketemu role model!!! 

i found this girl has the same glance with me... i dont know why but yes!!!

so i set my new goal!! i want to be fit!!! i want to look fresh!!!

jadi mulai skrg!!! aku bneer2 diettt!!! menu yg dikasih pt mulai lagi!!!!!!! haruss!!!!