I would lie if I say that my past doesn't influence the perception that I have today. I was once a very very very cheery person, (kalo gak percaya tanya deh ama anak cimp, anak monash angkatan 2006, sari itu anaknya rame, kocak, gila) not having to worry about what the future brings, an optimistic young girl. I've always questioned people what made them to change. Now I know the answer. Time does.
BUT THEN, this cheery person changed to completely different person:(
Now I'm very much an impatient person, which I've always avoided myself to be. Feel contempt most of the time. If I was the sky, I would be gloomy. No, this is not the change I've been longing to have, it's that process everyone goes through to find what they're truly made up of. Who they truly are. Gimana yah intinya bener2 bedah lah dari yang dulu.. kalo dulu suka basa basi ketemu ama orang.. kalo sekarang ketemuan ama orang jadi males basa basi busuk..
terus kalo di katain dikit bawaaan ajah uda sensi abis bawaaan pengen nyela klo uda disindir2.. T_T
now.. im trying my best to get back my cheerful personality.. even though my mom told me "she never see me smile lately".
I won't settle for this. I'm fighting back, but I feel like my skin isn't as thick as it used to be. Now it's breaking 'cause the scars and bruises are never-ending. Yes, that's what I get for being nice to everyone.
LET ME SURVIVE GOD!!!!!
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