end of January 2012

one thing I learned about this week is I have to smile, even when I don't feel like smiling. Another thing is that, when you try to do new things, whenever someone offer you an opportunity, and you take it, it could change your life. 

and i couldnt wait for march!! the walking dead season2!!! hihihih hopefully next month i will get a new job:) fingercrossed* but honestly i dont feel like to cause somehow its kinda hard for me to leave my hometown.... sad right?

Next month is February, and guess what's on the line? Valentine's day. 

Not that I'm looking forward to it or anything, but it just indicates that I'm single for the 6 months already Woot2hx. That's something to celebrate! :p 

Well, uhh, I was just in the mood to write a post. I gotta go... do something. Hahaha

Spread the loveee! 

XOXOX

"the truth hurts... and lies worse.."

I have been playing it over and over for like, say, 10 times today? Yes, that James Morrison song (feat. Nelly Furtado) has been haunting my ears for a few hours today. It tells about how a relationship is coming to an end. Good song, good song indeed. 




Oh, the truth hurts and lies worseHow can I give anymoreWhen I love you a little less than before?
Oh, what are we doing?We are turning into dustPlaying house in the ruins of us

I really miss this one person in my mind. I really did regret doing all the stupid things I did in the past, although it wasn't completely my fault. I really want to start off fresh on where we left off, but I guess that's just another dream I have to put on hold. Before he headed back home to where he lives currently, i hug him so tight that day and then yes he told me dont cry because he will feel not good, he is the hardest to get rid off (in my mind, that is, even 'til now). I don't even know what's the reason behind me not being able to forget about him, I mean, it is pretty easy for some people to just forget if they're in my case, mostly because I don't get to meet him and all, I just can't seem to put the feelings away. 

...dor!

I miss you :( 

'...it's like chasing the very last train, but it's too late...'

- Broken Strings

HOOOO RAHHHHHH TO MY SIM

aak police baru saja dateng ke rumah!! bawa KTP saye and my current 4x6 photo!!! tembak sim oi tembak sim...
no one resolutin 2012!!! CHECKED!!!!!!

WOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO :))))))))) CUPHIEEEEE

KENAPA?????

Kenapa ya orang bisa selingkuh ? 

Lebih gila lagi kalo dia tau dia cuma selingkuhan , tapi tetep mau dijadiin yang ke-2 . 

Kenapa ya orang ngerebut pasangan orang lain ? 

Lebih gila lagi kalo dia ngerebut pasangan orang yang orangnya ini deket sama dia (ada relasi gitu) . 

Kenapa ya orang gak mikir kalo ngomong ? 

Lebih gila lagi kalo orang ngomong udah mikir (maksudnya nyoba untuk gak nyakitin & ngerangkai kata-kata) tapi tetep aja masih nusuk (nancep) . 

Kenapa ya orang demennya ngomongin orang yang jelek-jelek ? 

Lebih gila lagi kalo orang ngomongin yang jelek-jelek tentang orang tapi none of them is true . 

Kenapa ya orang bisa cepet lupain seseorang ? 

Lebih gila lagi cepet lupain orang yang pernah made a HUGE impact di hidupnya .

Kenapa ya orang bisa boongin orang yang dia sayang ?

Lebih gila lagi kalo dia boongin orang yang dia sayang terus bisa keep a straight face . 

Kenapa ya orang suka tetep paksain ada sama orang yang gak buat dia bahagia ? 

Lebih gila lagi kalo tuh orang keep on pretending sampe-sampe nyiksa batin . 

Kenapa ya orang bilang kalo ngelepasin seseorang yang dia cintai itu tanda kalo dia bener-bener cinta ? 

Lebih gila lagi kalo dia harus sampe kehilangan tu orang tapi tu orang gak pernah tau apa yang bener-bener dia rasain . 

Kenapa ya orang baru ngerasain kalo dia cinta beneran waktu udah kehilangan ? 

Lebih gila lagi kalo tu orang ngerasain kehilangan tapi dia gak ngakuin . 

Kenapa ya orang gampang banget maenin perasaan orang lain ? 

Lebih gila lagi kalo dia gak merasa bersalah melakukannya .

Kenapa ya orang bisa gampang banget jahatin orang lain ?

Gak mikir kalo yang dia perbuat ke orang lain bisa balik lagi ke dia ya ?  

Gak mikir kalo orang punya perasaan ya ? 

Gak mikir kalo bad stuffs happen to bad people , ey ? 

Well , well ~

crawling from what so called "comfortzone" to the "notsocomforzone""

Rasanya gak tahan pengen cepet cepet kerja! ketemua bykkkk orang baru!!

Walaupun yaa gue tau dunia kerja itu won't be as fun as uni life is . Tapi manusia emang punya sifat yang cenderung "rumput tetangga itu jauh lebi hijau dari rumput sendiri" or jembut?? ngok. 

Padahal mah , belom tentu lagi ya kan!!! 

Hahaha . 

Tapi yaa gak lepas dari hal-hal yang berbau 'dunia kerja or pendidikan' , ada kata-kata yang udah melekat erat seperti 'assignments' atau 'exams' ato 'deadline' or 'targetsale' or 'overtime'

its gonna be fun fun fun.. yeah u wish sar;p

Ngomongin soal kerjaan , sebenernya gue belom made up my mind mau dimana . 

marketing research, sales property, or merchandiser, or finansial consultant, assistant executive.

Dream jobnya sih yg pasti enak gajinya, bossnya baek, working environmentnyaa okeh... tapi ya gak mungkin deh namaya hidup... kan ya:)

(You might think , najis banget gila ni orang muluk) 

Ya emang sih rada muluk , tapi what can I say , I'm a  dreamer :p 

I crave for the best job xp

Abisnya menurut gue , kalo lo dream sesuatu , tapi lu udah tau lu bisa nge-achieve itu , jadi ya , dream nya gak tinggi , cuma menurut lo kemampuan lo semana aja , gak ada 'thrill' nya yang buat lo dag-dig-dug gimanaaaaa gitu .  Kan seru-an kalo lo dream nya sedikit unrealistic dikit tapi lo chase bener-bener gitu , dan pasti begitu dapet , ada kepuasan batin yang gak bisa diungkapkan dengan kata-kata . 

LOL .

...

But for a fresh graduate with below soso academic results like me ? The odds are a thousand to one ! 

You have to be top of the top , creme de la creme , one out of the thousands !

And so , I put my dreams on hold aMen

And so , kata sodara gue sih sales property is one of the promising job for me who apparently like talking than working bhahahahak 

And I have to agree with that ! :) 

And I have this adrenaline rush knowing that I would live by my own and be someone independent ! 

Walaupun dalam otak masih terngiang-ngiang , "Makan apa yaa ntar gue tiap hari ?" 

LOL . 

But , well , it's worth the try :) 

work duties , colleague crush (LOL) , meeting or maybe holiday getaway with coworkers.. iye blom apa2 uda ngimpi aje yg enak2...

It makes me want to open wide and scream , "I'm ready , I'm ready , I'm ready" 

LOL .

Spongebob much ? 

Oh well , that is all for now before I turn yellow :) 

XOXO

capek bo gw mellow2 trus bikin post blognya!!! kayaknya bukan gw banget!!!!  LAGIAN GW MAO NGEBLOG PAKE BAHASA INGGRIS GW MESTI CHECK DULU DI GOOGLE BNER GAK NOH INGERISNYA!!!  soalnya adek gw satpam grammar. bo!! kalo kalo aja die kejebak di blog ini.. trus kak harusnya ini ... bukan itu... sumpah deh gw bisa masuk  lagi ke rahim nyokap gw.. minta die aja dulu yg di kluarin!!!!!

BUAHAHAHAHHA and in another 2 hours... papa bakal ajak saya muter2..!!! kamu tau orang pertama di dunia ini yg buat saya GROGI SALTING itu bukan PACAR PERTAMA SAYA loh.. tapi AYAH SAYA!! iya ayah saya got that charisma... 

bisa gilooooooooooooooooo ini gilooo!!! krn ayah saya itu orangnya engga bisa tolerir yg namanya "salah" dia itu menganut paham perfeksiologi gitu deh.. bahahahakkk .. adoh sumpahhhh bisa kecipirit iniiiiii menahan dillemmaa... haiya.. Tuhan berkatilah saya sore nantiiii.. ihihihi

OKE DEh CEYMAN2!!! rasana legaaa ngepost pake bahasa indo!!! lega banget... jari jari jadi lincah kayak kuda lumping.... seriusss bhihihihikkk.. 

 

XOXO talk to u soonnnn muachhh

u lose some u gain some :)

"Don't it always seem to go ? 
That you don't know what you got til it's gone..." 

I guess , this is so true :) 
Life lesson I want to share for the day ... 

Never , I mean , NEVER , trust someone easily . 
Trust is something someone should earn , because some people don't deserve the trust they receive , and they tend to take it for granted . 

Mostly , don't love someone easily . 
If trust is something someone should earn , then love is something someone should gain . 

I did both of them , I realized how dumb it was to trust and love someone at the same time and knowing that the person you love and trust , just doesn't do the same thing to you :) 
It's pathetic , I know . 
Well , I guess I'd rather die a hero than live long enough to see yourself a villain . 
HAHAHA okay , okay , gak nyambung . 
Maklum , korban film :p 


I think I got used to losing people I got immunized to it . 

Well especially those that I truly love . 

Well I have my cry , but got over it the next minute . but then i cry again T_T

I sleep on everythinggg , well maybe except on major MAJOR problems . 

I feel like people are getting really untrustworthy these days . I'm terrified because the fact is , the people who have the ability to hurt me the most are the people that I care about most . 

It's something that I can just feel , whether someone is truly trustworthy or when they're just being such suck-ups !

I find it very funny because those who are really close to me can be very disappointing , but those who I don't know that well can make me feel like I've known them my whole entire life . 

That might be one of the thousands of reasons I became very secured about my life . Like when people ask how I've been , I'll just say that everything is good , I'm doing fine like always , but I don't always mean it . 

Well ... most of the time ;)

I truly believe , that one thing in life , even a very small thing that happen in our lives , can turn our lives 180 degrees . You just have to prepare for it , it may happen anyhow , anywhere , anytime :) 

And if you really feel that you're good at something , go for it :) 

Despite all the crap things people may say about you , hey , you can't make everyone love you , no matter how nice or even though you give the lovey dovey treatment to everybody , some of them might be really fake , and even hate you . 

So if you're given the chance of a lifetime , followed by your own determination , I'd say , give it a shot :D 

You get one chance in life , be precise ! 

I know it's easier said than done , but I hope you find these things helpful 

XOXO after all we are only human.. mistakes? its forgiveable hehehe

someone....

Someone who is not afraid to express his feelings , not afraid to turn down a date just because he doesn't feel like going to one . 

Who always try not to hurt my feelings , even when he wants to criticize . 

Whose honesty makes me fall in love all over , and whose loyalty make me never wanting to let go . 

Someone who can make me laugh even at times i don't even want to smile at all . 

To surprise with sweet kisses on the forehead or on the cheek :) 

Someone who introduces me to his fellas and say , 'This is the girl i'm crazy about , ' 

Someone who would keep his promises and wait for hours just to see me for ten minutes , even when it's late . 

Someone who is not shy to tell about relationship to his parents or mine :):):) 

Someone who would say i love you , and means it . 

Someone who would accompany me to the groceries store just to buy an ice cream without the whining or the complains . 

Someone who has the courage to say that sex can wait . 

Someone who looks good and handsome without putting much effort into it . 

Someone who would tell me i'm beautiful even when my eyes are red and tears are running down my face :) 

Someone , somewhere , someday :)

HAHAHA :p

its hurt for knowing but it would be more if not knowing

Have you ever feel like saying something but never really get the chance to say it ?
Have you ever kept something to yourself that it hurts so bad to see it was too late ? 
Have you ever regretted the fact that you lied to yourself just for someone else's happiness ? 
Have you ever change your mind just because someone dragged you to ? 
Have you ever thought that it was the right thing to do , and turned out it wasn't ?

I've been there , yes , it is as bad as it sounds . As a matter of fact , it's worse :( 
Imperfection has been haunting me these days . 
What will life be when it was all made oh-so perfect ? 
I'm thankful that God allowed bad things to happen , so that we all will be able to thank the good things (that usually don't last) to happen to us . 
I'm thankful that i don't make the right choices , so that i can see through some other people's glasses about life , knowing what i never had known . 

Usually we mistaken life by running , jumping , and flying , to reach there . 
Where is this 'there' , refer to ??Happiness ?? Dreams ?? A good life ?? destiny??
Where is this destination we all tend to aim ? 
How do we get there ??

The answer is actually lying there all this time , waiting for us to see with our own two eyes .
That's why , we just don't get it , we keep on asking these silly questions about life , where actually small things are answers to big questions (: 

It's those bruises that make us never wanting to repeat the mistakes we've made . 
It's those scars that make us remember that our past molds our future . 
It's those choices we make that expose the 'true person inside each one of us .'
Let's just say , we're all pretty lucky that we all have one thing in common . That is , we're all different in our own ways (;
Life is what you make out of it ! The power to succeed or fail is yours alone (;

XOXO

all jiggle... tummy, legs, arms!! FRUSTASIONG!

today is sunday... this happy tummy day.. daddy usually went out fro groceries shop and ended up bought a lot of foods, like kwe tiauw, bakso, and some raw vegie and meat of course.. 


and today i ended up ate like a "babooon" i ate 2 portion of bakso, trus mkan udang saus tiram buatan sendiri.. udangnya gede loh abis 4 lagi pake full nasi putih... yes.. uda naek 2 kg!!! and Naga's wedding just around the corner. and mom keep reminding bout this.. so yes next week no more white rice no more cake, no more carb!!! i will eat ubi!! UBI UNITE!!!!


Gak kepikiran banyak mo nulis apa sih . Mendingan ngisi2x smacem bulletin board aja ya , supaya yang baca pada tau gue lebih banyak :) 
(Haduh kok jadi canggung gini ya :p) 

*Start*

Satu barang yang buat kamu betah dirumah ?
- laptop with full of my favorite downloaded tv series:)

Satu barang yang bisa buat kamu senang ?
- Food ? hahahahaaha :p

Satu kata yang bisa bikin mata kamu liatin terus ?
- 'SALE'
mwhiahiahiaahiahia :p

Satu kata yang kamu katakan setiap hari ?
- 'Thanks'

Satu barang yang kamu idam2x kan untuk punya ?
- my own house xp

Satu sifat kamu yang paling kamu gak suka ?
- Nunda2x things to do .

Satu habit baru kamu ?
- Errm apa ya , gak bisa baring abis makan.. biasanya sih langsung guling2.. 

Satu orang yg kamu sayang ?
- Dor .

Satu orang yang kamu gak suka ?
- yg gak kenal gw tapi ngatain gw.. WTH

Satu barang yang paling handy ?
- Laptop//BB

Satu hal yang udah ngerubah hidup kamu ?
- Banyak bngetbngetbngetan :p gak cukup satu-

Satu lagu yang kamu suka banget ?
- love on top - beyonce 

Satu lagu yang baru aja kamu terima/download ?
- lisa hannigan "passenger" new album :)))))

Satu film kesukaan kamu dari dulu ?
-  never been kissed itu yg maen drew, trus breakfast at tiffany krn audrey hepburnnya cakep abis!, trus sounds of music

Satu film yang pengen kamu tonton ?
-  gak ada 


Satu orang yang buat kamu seneng tiap hari ?
- God :) :) :)

Satu film yang kamu mau bintangin ?
- ar u kidding? crazy stupid love of course.... heyyy ada RYAN GOSLING GELOK LOE!

Satu orang yang ada dipikiran kamu ?
- papa!

Satu alesan kenapa mikirin dia ?
-  sore ntar mo diajarin nyetir... *superdeg2an*

Satu orang yang naik di mobil atau pesawat sama kamu ?
- Mobil : Mom , Pesawat : Mom

Satu kata sebelum nutup ini ?
- have a good lunch
*Finish*

Hahaha :p
Itu geje sangat sangat sangat bngetbngetbngetan;
Gaktau mo ngapain .
Errrgh;
Sampai nantiii :)
XOX

actually im still waiting for another episode to finish downloading... so another post wouldn't be any harm right?
Well i'm going to write a poem that i made like a long time ago , something that i felt i need to pour out in a piece of paper (that's totally me , i don't tell people when i'm upset or pissed) . 
And so here it goes-

How does it feel to fall ?
To see everything you worked for is for nothing at all... 
How does it feel to lose ? 
Especially someone who gives you boost... 
How does it feel to fade ? 
Knowing someone you used to love turned to hate... 

And to cry out the most- 
Losing someone you should've held close... 
To be at the lowest point in life- 
Letting go of what was worth your strive... 
All you do was to imagine yourself holding his hand- 
So close , unconditionally til' the end... 

Too personal , yea , you can say that ;p 
Ha !
I love this poem so much , i dont know why . 
I know it's not that good , but it's the only poem that i've written in tears (literally) .
I don't have to tell y'all why , i'm such a cry-baby ;p 
Well that is all :D
XOXO

psssttt... guys?!?!

Here are the rights that actually , guys had to have :)

1.Right to bring the emotions out
One thing that is really important that girls tend to forget about man is that guys are human beings that have feelings too , and sometimes they're not as 'manly' or as 'tough' as you think they are . being embarassed by a girl ( most likely , his girlfriend) , like a 'public break-up' might drop his mental down and even might not be strong enough to keep all those tears in !

2.Right to play with their 'toys'
It is kind of annoying when a guy is busy with soccer , basketball , or any particular sports that he's into . or maybe with his group band , or even his video games . unfortunately girls , it is extremely hard to break his habit 100% . even though he grows 'older' , that doesn't mean that he'll be losing his hobbies as well .

3.Right to have a 'no-girls-time'
Guys can be turned down easily if his girlfriend or his crush is 24/7 in contact ( or even everrrywhere ) with him . he does need to hang out with his friends , just chilling , or even sleep all day without any disturbance from anyone , including us , girls :) 
it even gives him more time to miss us :) haha !

4.Right to dress up
If girls are allowed to dress up for hours just to look good , why can't guys ? We have tons of terms for clothings ! High-waist skirt , sleeveless , puffy shorts , ruffled arm , denim skirt , and loads more ! while guys , they have their well-known t-shirts and jeans ! so it's okay to express themselves the way they want to , like wearing pink top , vest ( ooh la la ) , or  even a fedora :)

5.Right to not always be the starter
In this 'normal' world , guys would do all the work around here ! asking our name , our number , or even tell us how they truly feel ( whoopee :D ) . but they can also be the one who has to just wait , especially guys who are shy and who has issues about expressing their feelings to girls ! not all guys are that confident around girls you know :)

I AGREE 1000000000000000 % !
Haha :)
The real article was in indonesian language , it was much longer , so i wanted to translate it to english , and it's not exactly like what was written in the magazine , i added my own twist to it :)
Okay so by what i think... It is okay for guys to cry ! even for me , guys are at their sexiest when they cry ;p it just shows their vulnerable side , and that they have feelings too (:
and i'm also okay about the second point , i heard before that guys never grow up , good thing by some points though . and yea , i see the 3rd point happening a lot , that girls are all around his life , wanting his attention and all . lol .
and yea , it's cute when guys wear pink ( if it fits them , some guys choose the pink t-shirt that are like tooooo tight that it looks like it's even hard for him to breathe :p  ) , or like guys wearing skinny jeans . it's okay if it looks good on them , but if the guy is like stick-skinny , it's not nice to be seen at all x)

wanna know about girls' rights ? i'll make it simple & quick , since this blog is already long enough :p

1.Right to be annoying on PMS (Pre-Menstrual Syndrome)
( Yes , guys , i experience this , all girls do . i don't get why it happens either , but it's hormones , we can't control this ! xp )
2.Right to be the starter
( Yes , we have the right to be the starter by showing how we truly feel towards guys ,without being called aggressive or bitchy ! )
3.Right to be listened
(Yes , please do listen to our opinions ,  don't think that we're irrelevant in the 'guys zone')
4.Right to be (not) straight to the point
( Well , you may say that girls are weird , because as a matter of fact , we kind of are ! we do spin around about what we talk about , we don't know what we want , and even don't know how we truly feel ! )
5.Right to protect our body 
( So puhleaaaze , no forcing if your girlfriend does not want to be touched in certain areas , or maybe hugged or kissed . )

note to self

it's almost a week since i'v posted my first post, well i have been "busy" with a lot of stuffs. not that important tho.. and i'll tell you what it is:)


havent i tell you guys about "my insecurities about this twitter tingy". well the night before, i tweeted some thing about "possessiveness" between men and women... and here this guy "my ex schoolmate" tweeted back mentioned about me being so desperate being "single". Can u relate it for me between "possessiveness" and "desperation being a single"... he must be come from another planet that his languange and my languange is far away different.. dont make an excuse like man from venus and woman from mars.. please okay we are adequate in everything..
iim got so mad about these things u know.. why people think tht im so desperate.. yeah i know since 6 months from "my break up" im still single and never find the replacement for my ex. but it doesnt mean im desperate okay... why ppl nowadyas so meanie meanie.. and the more surprisingly is that comment from a guy..
another thing about twitter, got another guy "tweeted no mention but i know he purposely tweet that for me"
cause im the only one who really like to tweet crap and galauness. but still okay if u dont like my tweets u can just click the unfollow button without need to say something bad about people


yeah i just got dissapointed about those guys who are thought in the first place could be my future male bestfriends...
so far, i thought my the only male bestfriends well not really bestfriend cause sometimes he can be annoying too.. this guy we called him OMDO.. hahahaha.. he is nice but he need to learn how to make a joke tho.. he is so cheesy.. hahahahha...


about my future job, well i;ve been apply here and there in marketing research, property or even secretary just for the sake that daddy told me to find a job near our home first so that i can adapt n get some experience before really jump into the "real world". just wish me luck okay.. i want to be like my friends to fell what the real world really like:)) my big dream is to make my parents happy  and be able to travel around the world (Paris, london, and switzerland :))


well, i gotta go, cause my downloaded movies done and its almost 9o'clock...e  i'll continue all the chit chats on the next post :) nite you and you and you... XOXO

drink a toast for a new post in the new blog !

its so difficult to find a new name for this new blog... but then i rmb yeapp im the spoiled one.. so this is bout my story.. lets name it: spoiled princess and her story!!! TADA!!!!

i have so many blogs actually but because so many pro and cons.. i just deleted all my previous blogs.. 

normally i will pouring all the sadness and happiness through my twitter but since i guess alot alot of ppl feel disturbed of my alayness. HERE IAM decided to make a new one AGAIN LOLs

a fresh graduated from Malaysia and still jobless until this point of time.. i making alot excuses when ppl finding me still yeah jobless... ngek ngok and today its second day of CNY... 

okay this is just the first post... 

muach muach muach ...